Today

I want to take a moment out from recapping the past to talk about today. Its 12:20 pm, and in about half an hour I'm going to leave my apartment to journey out to see her. I love days like today, I've loved today since I first mentioned it to her on Sunday, when we had an amazing day. But the reason I love today is this, I've had something to look forward to. I'm already antsy with anticipation about seeing her in a mere 3 hours. But  I got to look forward to today for three whole days. And thats the amazing thing about being in love with someone as much as I'm in love with K.

When you have someone like her in your life you look forward to things again. The weight of the world can get pretty heavy, but you have this thing that nobody can take away from you. You have the next time you see this person, and it doesnt matter if its in 3 days, or in 3 hours, you look forward to it. Looking forward to something is one of the most amazing things in the world.

It can save your life.

You think to yourself, well today sucked, but I get to see K on Wednesday. Or man, what a horribly long day, I cant wait to get off work and go see her.  The point is that I look forward to her. She props me up sometimes when I'm low, she kisses my wounds, feeds me courage, and occasionally talks me off of a ledge.   I look forward. Again.